the day of b plus c

<3 on 14th August 2010.
I love my baby Berry=)

your first kiss

on 2nd Julyyyyy.=)

ILU

I really miss him a lot.
When i say it, i really really mean it.
I really really, love himmm!

Was so super shy when he hugged me agn.
I dunno why does this happen to me?
I erm, nv had such feelings w my prev ex-es.

But i really felt so sweet.
He is opening up to me, which i think is damn gd! =)

Loves u!<3

He held my hands on 30/06/2010.

I love him!
Can't wait for Friday when he bked out!
MAJOR LOVES.

We UNOFFICIALLY confessed on 28.6.2010=)

Zomg, i really am sooo damn high and happy right now.
Like my dreams come true?
Like the guy i'd always wanted is mine? HAHAHA=p
I hope one day when he sees this blog, he won't puke?
haha=p

I LOVE HIM!
Now i can say it out loud (only to him la).
Low profile low profile.

Please let me see results soon!
My target is to be OFFICIALLY with him in Dec.
Though i am already un-OFFICIALLY his alr.
HAHA.

Okay, where shall we go this Fri? I jus wanna be w him! =)
My long list of wants-to-do w him:
Actually, i wanna go genting w him agn!
Also, travel to smwhere further!
And, have a night's stay at Scarlet Hotel which i think is damn nice.
Go cycling and walk along the beach.
Go take the Flyer w him.
Do many things la! HAHA.
=pp

I'm thinking of what to do on his next yr's bday alr..
I wanna open a chalet for him!
=) Tt's his wish.
Den i will privately celebrate w him also!
Was thinking of a trip! HAHA.
OKKKK.
CAN'T FREAKING WAIT lah.
=p

Working towards being with u!

I'm so reassured now.
=)
With your constant saying that you like me.
Omg.
Anyway, though i'm having mixed feelings,
I believe one day, you will fulfill your promises.

When can i proceed to my first step?

I wanna hug u so badly,
=p

Nvm, i shall wait.
Worth the wait!

Okay, now is the first step.
How to tell GZ?
How?
It's like easier said den done.
Omg,
I don't wanna screw things up.

=(

I can't say this to u now,
so i needa talk to my blog.
I love u, B! =)

I need help?

Thx for telling me how u feel abt me.
Thou i really didn't have the confidence that ur ans wld be positive,
but i just told u liddat.
I still dunno wad happened to me.

When u tried to hold my hands,
as much as i wanted to hold ur hands so firmly and not let go,
i just can't bring myself to do it.
Because I really dunno, i really dunno who i am to u.
You said you've raised ur hands,
and i've raised mine,
but boy, i am waiting for u to clap it.
I've been waiting for so long.
=(

Okay,
One step at a time.
Now, how to break news or what?
HELP!

I really love uuu!=)

Zomg, where the hell did i pluck up the courage to tell you so many things?
Omg, what is happening to me?
I know i wanted you that much,
okay so so so much,
but i didn't know what happened to me!

Omgomg.

Loving B

Heh, i'm really missing you. Where are you?
I really dunno if i shld stop msging you.
But i really can't help it.
I shld just try for one day, just one day of not msging you.
I wld most prob die la.
HAIS.
Freaking miss you so much, i freaking wanna see you.
I hope time will past more quickly den i can run w u at night later.
HAIS.
I just can't help,
but falling in love w u.
=(

I love u.

You have no idea how much I want u.
Omg, I love u so much. U have no idea.
I just hope u're happy.
Happy happy happy.
Seeing u happy makes me feel happy.

I love him.

i reallly love this guy.
But he is not mine! =(











This is the 2nd yr i've been in love w him.
Head over heels.
I've nv had such feeling w gz.
=(

I love him.

Becus of my wanting to get closer and nearer to him,
My bf hates me already.
He even talked to him abt this!
OMG.
Luckily, we went out but dun feel like avoiding each other.
We still hit here and there, bite each other, pinch each other.
But i wonder if he noes anything about me liking him?
Anw i must really say, i really love him a lot.
I hope he finds a really nice gf in future.
Even thou i always hope that i wld b his one, but it will nvr happen.
=(

I felt really really sweet when he held my hands, wanting to let me avoid the cyclist.
I felt really really sweet when he called me, "my gal", even thou it doesn't really mean that way.
How i wished everything was real. What i want wld come true.
=(

How?

Sighs, this is the time i hope that he has to work on PH.
How?
I really really love B.
But i m loved by G.
HOW?
=(

I love B!

I love that he waits for me after work.=)
I love that he eats dinner w me=)
I love that he accs me=)
I love that he talks to me and listens to me=)
I love that he walks me home=)

I simply love everything abt him=)

I m thinking to myself, why i dun have the same feeling as when i m w my bf?
=(

I only can speak to this blog, as to how much i really love him.
I cant imagine one day, he has a gf.
HOW?
=(

Hates this feeling!

One side of me hopes that you will find ur love one soon, but the other side hopes u'll stay single as long as possible, so i can play w u like mad friends.

This is getting worst.
My mind/heart is filled w u, not my bf.
DIE la.

Somebody , pull me back! =(

Tmr's diet: No breakfast. Light lunch, light dinner, green tea x4 cups.
Night: Study math! Exams are coming very very soon! =(
Where shld i study? I really hope he comes and acc me !!
I think i will head to changi airport! Starbucks? Maybe? Or mac!
I need a place which has ppl to motivate me frm studying not sleeping! Sunday? I hope I will run or maybe play bowling? It's been long since i bowled!
But i think i shld study too! Study in noon!

Maybe i shld just study myself.
I shld't bother him so much...
=(


I wanna go dream of him alr. Since in reality nth like what i think will happen/ come true.
Nights, world.

I wanna be more than frens, but it is impossible.

I feel so happy just to see him.
The him not him.
I always feel diff w him.
The dinner and ice cream session was filled w happiness & fun & joy.
I think most bffs will feel the same right?
Idk, really dunno.
I just wanna meet him everyday!
I feel damn happy that he walks me home after meeting me, and sends me up to my doorstep.
He doesn't do that in the past.
I m really god-damn happy!
I feel like a little girl w him.
Sadly, we wun hav a ending.
Cus friends are forever.
A double meaning to that. =(

the feeling is back agn

The feeling is back again.
I feel so freaking happy like a young girl being w him.
Why can't my bf gimme that kind of feeling?
I am a bitch la.
How can i like my bf's fren in the first place?
=(
Stop this, it's sucha joke!=(

I wanna pass my driving badly!

When can i pass my driving. Seriously. HAIS!!!
=(

i hate myself

I am starting this blog because of my deep and darkest secrets.
=(
So troubled for these past yrs.
I love this guy but I am with another.
I wanna be w this guy so i am with my bf.
I feel so =(((

Stop all these pls.=((